It's been forever and a day, so I figured I might as well update my journal.
Still living in AZ, loving it out here. I've met some really awesome people, at TNF and now at Parc Place. I've met some people that I truly feel will be my friends for life, which is awesome.
Work is going pretty well. It's WAY WAY WAY better than TNF could EVER be, which is fabulous! The pay is nice, the benefits are good, I work with great people, and I get along wonderfully with all of my bosses. The kids drive me crazy some days, but I have to admit it's nice to walk on to the unit and have 4 or 5 kids rush over for a hug cause they "missed me".
I'm hoping to go back to school in January and work on getting my MS in Clinical Psych. I was going to go back in September, but I procrastinated and now it's too late. But now I just need to get my butt in gear for January. I like my job, but I don't want to be a tech forever.
Jeff is in culinary school, and he's really liking it. It's so nice to see him finally motivated. He's going to be looking for a job soon, and he's been talking about his future career as a cook, which has been kinda surreal. :P I'm so happy that he's figuring out his life now.
Back in June, I did the MS 150 with Celina, Dad, and Jason. It was a very very hard and tiring couple of days, but I'm proud to say I did all 150 miles (well, actually, more than that, cause I got lost and off track, but that's a whole 'nother saga ...)! There were some bumps in the road, but it was nice to cross that finish line and know that I accomplished my goal. There's another MS 150 here in AZ in February, and I plan on doing that one, as well as the MS 150 in RI with my family again.
So, that's the update from me. Life is going pretty good. Talking to my family, hanging out with my friends, earning good money at a decent job. Can't really complain. :)
In case you were wondering, I have not dropped off the face of the earth. =)
I haven't updated in forever, and I'm procrastinating doing work, so why not? So we've been living down here for nearly 4 months now. Summer was reallllly hot, you don't know heat until you have a week of 115 degree weather. Arizona is nice, but I don't see myself growing old down here. I get along with my family now, and I think I may move back up to CT eventually to be near my friends and family once we decide to start a family. In August, I started working at a behavioral health center, TNF. It has its ups and downs. The pay isn't horrible, but it's not fantastic either. I work in a residential treatment center, doing groups and basically keeping people from freaking out. Occasionally you have to deal with a crisis, which is stressful but good experience. I'm getting really good at CPI holds now, so I guess that's good. The staff I work with are great. I haven't known them long enough to consider anyone a friend, but they are definitely friendly acquaitances. We go out on Sunday nights after work, drink and talk about our weeks. It's always way too much fun.
I'm in school again, which makes for a busy life. My classes are easy this semester, I'm basically doing part of undergrad all over again. But a refresher couldn't hurt. More reading than undergrad, but less busy work. I have acquaitances at school too, so it's all good. Jeff is also in school, his first semester. He's only taking a couple of classes (financial aid thing) but he hopes to start taking more classes in the spring semester. He seems to be doing well, and likes going.
So that's basically what we've been up to. I must say that I MISS EVERYONE! Sometimes it really sucks being 2500 miles away from almost everyone I love. Scrounge up some money and come visit! =D
I hate being such a klutz. Yep, you guessed it- I have hurt myself again. I've been bicycling lately (for exercise and for fun) and was out riding yesterday morning. I guess I got too close to the curb, cause BAM! down I went. I scraped just about all the skin off my knee, it was fun. Then I still had to pedal home because I was at least 3 miles away. Then last night I got to go to the clinic and get meds because it's infected. But at least they gave me medicine to help me heal and a tetanus shot (have you seen the size of that needle? OUCH!) so I should be all good in a few days. Right now I'm just limping around. It is so hard to walk without bending my knee. But at least if I'm in the girl's dorm at work tomorrow night I can't be the 1:1 and can't take them on walks. =) I can stay inside the nice air conditioned dorm. That will be nice.
Ok, pity me part is over.
So what have I been up to? Well, working mostly. The girls are finally starting to listen to me though, because they know I will give them consequences. Haha. I was in Diversion the other night, which was fabulous. Spent the day watching movies and playing cards. And got paid for it too! I like the girls, but they get verrrrrry tiring. Too much drama. Though I have been working with this girl Michelle, and we're becoming friends. We have a standing "date" for drinks after work whenever the girls are really bad. The other staff are nice too, which makes working easier. Just finished orientation for grad school- don't have to take an english course, yey! Classes start next week, I'm not nervous. I've written plenty of papers at Lesley, this will be no sweat. I've met some of my classmates, who seem pretty cool. I can picture myself becoming friends with them. I'm only taking 4 classes that meet once a week, so that's not bad. On Wednesdays, I only have class for an hour! I didn't plan my schedule that way, but one of my classes was switched to Tuesday, but it still works.
The boy is in school, and he seems to be enjoying it. He's already complained about his math homework though. =P He's been wanting to do this for a long time, but I'll support him in whatever he does. If he stays in school, great. If he wants to work instead, great. Whatever will make him happy (but that does not include playing video games 22 hours a day, living like a hermit, lol). We're doing okay. We kind of hit a rough patch, but I'm hoping things will get better. I may be more pissy than usual because I'm not used to working such long hours. Or he could be going through his male PMS again. Either way, it always works out in the end.
I like Arizona, but I really think that after he finishes school, I'll want to move back to CT. He doesn't really seem to have an opinion either way. Now that I'm close to my family again, I miss them like crazy. And all my friends too! I'd love to raise our children near our friends and family. Either everyone moves out here, or we'll move back. It's not definite, but I think in four years or so I'll be ready to move back.
Wow, I'm ranty. This is what happens when he is sleeping because he has to get up in the morning and I'm not tired and bored. Hope you enjoyed reading my rambles!
Sometimes I worry that someday Jeff and I might not make it. This sounds so pessimistic, but I worry sometimes. Things are wonderful now, but we don't always agree on big things. I want kids someday. Not now, but I'll probably want to start trying in a few years. He hates kids. I made it very clear to him that if he marries me, he will be a father one day. And he married me, so I guess he will. But sometimes I'll say "when we have kids ..." and he kind of shuts down. I really really want to be a mom someday, but I'm focusing on my career right now. But I worry about what's going to happen when I tell him I'm getting off my birth control? What happens if/when I get pregnant? His dad wasn't there for him, and I'd hate to have history repeat itself.
I feel a little better now.
I am employed! I still have to pass a drug test, but no biggie. I'm a good girl, I don't do drugs. =) I'm going to be working at a residential center called The New Foundation. I'll be working Friday through Monday, afternoon/evening shifts. Then class Tuesday through Thursday. So no complete days off, but partial. I've had enough days off anyway. It's nice to finally know that I'll have a job. Money is very nice. =D
After working on it here and there for a year and suffering horrible writer's block, I finally finished my book. It's tentatively called Resurrected Flame, but I'm not sure if I like that title. If anyone has a lot of free time and wants to read it, let me know! =)
I also may have an interview with Thunderbird Medical Center here in Phoenix. If I get the job, I'd be a case manager, a FANTASTIC job for someone with just a Bachelor's Degree. Full benefits and everything!
I can't sleep. Stupid humidity. I tried to go to bed early cause today is the day the moving van gets here and I wanted to be up early for that. I guess I still will be, just I'll be grumpy from lack of sleep. I can never sleep when it's humid. Tomorrow we leave Massachusetts and stay in CT for about five days. Then we finally get on a plane and fly to ARIZONA! I really am excited. Moving is soo stressful, but I'm anxious to start our new life out there.
I'm considering visiting my grandparents while I'm in Connecticut. My grandma hasn't always been the nicest person, but I love my grandpa to pieces. I really miss him and want to see him. Alright, I'll visit but if grandma tries to guilt trip me, I'll just say that I don't want to discuss that and change the subject. Hopefully we'll get to spend some quality time together. I'll also probably see my brother and finally get to meet Kyla. Nancy's been acting strange lately, but I really would like to see my nieces.
Jason told me that mom and dad want to see me. Yeah, like that's going to happen. I am not strong enough to go through all that crap again. And I can never forgive them for not attending our wedding. I know that I'm worthy of love and happiness and that I shouldn't surround myself with people who will put me down. So that's what I'm doing. I just wish that everybody could come to their senses and see that I'm not an awful person. But I've come to learn that I cannot change the way they treat me. I can only change the way I react to it.
If anyone is interested, here is our new address as of June 5th- 10 E. Bell Rd #1079 Phoenix, AZ 85022. The phone number is the same, for now. I expect all of you to come and visit as often as you can, and soon! I'm going to miss all my friends so much. =(
I graduated from college today. I'm not quite sure how I feel about that. I don't think it's hit me yet. My diploma is sitting over there, and yet I don't really believe the words. I know I worked for my degree for 4 years, but now that I have it, it doesn't feel real. Maybe I just need a few days to let it sink in.
Moving day is coming up out of nowhere. I need to pack and clean, yet I keep procrastinating. I know I'll get to it once time forces me to do it. Only 10 days until we leave Massachusetts and 15 until we fly to Phoenix. I can't wait!
Oh my GOD migraines suck. At least the throbbing pain is finally subsiding. But anyone who gets them knows migraines are the worst. I wouldn't wish them on anyone. Someday I will go to a doctor and get some pills. For now I think I'll stock up on excedrin migraine. At least it's a slight headache now compared to the throbbing searing pain and nausea I was dealing with an hour ago. (Ok, enough whining ...)
Graduation is a week from today. Right now, I have the Jeff's coming. My brother hasn't called me back, and he knows when it is and all that. If he comes, he comes. I'm tired of calling people in my family and them not calling me back. But I am so excited to graduate and leave Lesley forever! I hope I get good grades and graduate magna or summa cum laude (probably magna).
I chopped about 3 inches off my hair yesterday. Whenever I get my hair cut it looks redder to me. I was playing around with my new digital camera (thank you to the boy) and my hair looked red in all the pictures. My eyes changed color almost every picture too. The new camera is a Sony cybershot- it's so much smaller than my old one.
I cannot wait to move to where it's warm and sunny! This week of winter temperatures/neverending rain is getting old.
Two more days. Two! Tomorrow is my last day working at the library, and then I have a final meeting and a final on Thursday. Then I'm done with Lesley!!!!! I cannot wait.
Then I get to start packing and cleaning like a mad woman. I'm trying to find free boxes wherever I can ... I'm going to try to hit up the grocery store. We're getting rid of most of our stuff, including the car. We'll probably put that up for sale next week, once I figure out what we have to do to sell it privately. I just hope it will sell and that we'll get good money for it. Then it's off to CT for a few days, then we fly to Phoenix! We don't have a place yet, but I'm hoping to hear from the apartment complex soon. But I had no idea that moving was so freaking expensive. I don't plan on moving again anytime soon, it's such a pain in the ass!
11 days til graduation!